"Because I have been given much, I too must give"

Today I feel an overwhelming sense of gratitude. Not just for the blessings in my life, but for the obstacles.

Recently a friend of mine is experiencing a situation closely related to our journey with Sophie. As she explained her heartache and the deep concern for her unborn child, it took me right back to where I was a year ago. I was heartbroken, depressed, lonely, and childless. (I am grateful that this girl friend isn't childless, thank goodness. But whenever there is a bump in a pregnancy, those emotions are still VERY real. ) I didn't know where to turn, or who could possibly understand my deep sense of loss. BUT I did turn to my Heavenly Father. Every step of the way I sought his council, I would say hourly, but it was more moment by moment. I put my trust in him, and I relied on the knowledge that there is always one person who knows exactly how I feel/ felt. And that was my Savior, Jesus Christ. During that time there were so many angels sent into my life. My Husband, Mother, Grandmother, Father, Sister-in-law, A girl from church who had only been my friend for a few weeks. Those people, and many more, were a HUGE support systems for me.

But I was sent two special woman who knew exactly how I felt. I am going to throw out names because, I don't think they realize how much they meant and mean to me. Angelene Gallini, and Leilani Camden. Both of these woman experienced the loss of a child, different circumstances, same pain. They escorted me into a very special group of woman who have lost one before "their time". They we're my shoulders to cry on, they were the ones who showed me that there is life and love after loss. Because of their experiences, they helped heal my heart. My heart will ache for my daughter, until the day that I hold her in my arms again. But they showed me how to cope with that pain.

Thank you to everyone who helped me through my darkest days. I hope to be a healing tool in the Master's hands for all those who may need me.

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