Two years

Today marks the two year anniversary of the day I became a mother!

Sophie Noel would be two years old today! The past two years have brought so many blessings into my life. Starting with her sweet spirit that was given to me for the very shortest of times, but my journey with her has taught me so much about WHO I am. I can't express those thoughts in paragraph form, so I'll just bullet them :)

• I have always believed in the Eternal Family principal that The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints teaches, but I never appreciated it in its fullness... Now I know it is one of the simple and beautiful truths that Heavenly Father has given to us! In my darkest grieving moments, this is the light that always brought me back to the present life I live. 
• I guess you can say my life has been pretty easy! I had a wonderful experience in high school, I had two loving parents who not only loved me, but loved each other. I moved away for college and met my amazing Husband, we had a beautiful wedding, followed by the joys of buying a home. Very shortly after our wedding we found out that we were pregnant! So up until the birth and death of Sophie my life was pretty "picturesque". Having her taught me to accept Heavenly Father's plan, and to have the faith to follow it!
• By going through my "Sophie" experience, it helped me view motherhood as a privilege, rather than a right. 
• It is still teaching me (everyday) to have patients, and to trust in my Father in Heaven.

There are so many things I could say on this post. So many lessons I've learned, and so many "ahhha" moments. I love being a mother, I am so grateful for the trust that Heavenly Father puts in me everyday to parent his children. Sophie was needed elsewhere, I have had to accept that fact. I KNOW that one day I'll hold her again, until then I have a unique relationship that extends this world we live in. My love for her transcends the vale, I know that she loves me as well. I feel her fearless, outspoken, knowledgeable light all around me.

 If she were here I would've woken her up singing happy birthday, holding her chunky little hands , and looking into a face much like mine, feeling the love that I feel for her right now. Why I was given this challenge, I wont know until I can ask God himself. Until that moment I'll hold onto my faith, and dream of the daughter that awaits me in the next life. How blessed I am to be a mother of three children of God! I love my babies, and the blessings they bring into my life! 

Happy Birthday Sophie!!